Friday, May 11, 2007

An itch ... that is always scratched, yet never eased.

That is what it feels like to be me some days. Most days. I am yet to be formally 'diagnosed' with Tourette's disorder. I have denied it for years. To give the things I do a name is to admit that I do not control it. One of my greatest fears in life is not being in control of who I am.

The feeling creeps up my spine, across my shoulders, I can feel it and I wonder what will happen next. I am never sure. Sometimes it's just a twitch, others a huge squawking outburst. By the time I find out what it is to be, it's too late. It's done. I have embarrassed myself. I look like a fool. I am a fool. Again. I am convinced now that this is what leads to my constant anxiety, with me from when I wake up to when I finally go off to sleep. The not-knowing what will come out of me, what way I will find of embarrassing myself today.

I can suppress my "tics" ... gosh, tics - to give them a name feels wrong. It's just me, I must be making it up, I must have control, I must choose to be this way? I must make a conscious decision to be the way that I am? Can it really take 27 years to finally realise that maybe ... just maybe, who I am, is not all by my choice? Can I then be forgiving toward myself, can I then learn to like myself just a little, because it's not my fault? Can I truly learn to laugh at myself, rather than pretending to, simply because everyone else is?

I am happier allowing myself to be me, to allow myself to give in to the urges, to move and make the noises I so desperately want/need to. As a teenager I used to shake, almost constantly. Was this the pressure of controlling my desire to behave in this way? I was never comfortable, I could never relax.

I am terrified of relaxing, to relax is to give in to the unknown, to allow the urges to creep up on me, to take over me, to not be in control of myself.

I liked spending time on my own when I was young, where I could freely be myself. To be in constant company was scary, difficult, tiring. To hide in my room, to flick my hands, shrug my shoulders, turn my head, make quiet noises under hidden breath. That is where I was comfortable.

To be able to behave freely now is the biggest relief, just writing this surges emotions inside me. No more hiding. I still doubt myself, still wonder if I am making it up, think that I should just try really really hard. If I try my hardest, then I don't have to do it. But to be on guard 24/7 feels impossible.

I can be on guard whilst on the phone. On guard at an important meeting. Even on guard on a quiet train cabin. But when I am alone it comes back, and it comes back like a rocket.

To be on guard is not as hard as you might imagine. I have read comparisons by Tourette's sufferers to "trying not to blink" ... but I don't feel this fits for me. I would prefer to compare it to trying not to cough when you have a nasty tickle in your throat, or trying not to clear your throat when it has covered over with phlegm. Blinking feels too urgent, too scary.

The feeling that creeps up my spine, I can feel it coming, I can focus really hard on it and almost feel it being pushed back down. I carry on. No one knows.

Should I try harder ... or should I give in? Should I admit it's not my fault? Can I believe that it's not something I can just snap out of? I have been trying for most of my life to "snap out of it" ... how much longer must I keep trying?

An itch ... that is always scratched, yet never eased.

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62 Comments:

Blogger Stray said...

wow. Badger, I sort of thought I 'got it', having been around it so much, but I didn't really have a clue.

I think this is a very strong piece of writing - I can feel your fear and your frustration.

Does it help to voice it?

Sx

12:13 PM  
Blogger Ms Melancholy said...

Oh Badger, what a beautiful piece. I am lost for words. Just really, really beautiful.

10:41 PM  
Blogger brumcunian said...

http://www.bigbtv.com/Images/BigBrother/BBUK/bb7uk/Pictures/Pete.jpg

Take a leaf out of another Pete's books and scream 'your lifes not worth a damn until you can shout out I am what I am'.

I went on a sh awareness course yesterday and outed myself to medical staff and service users about my past sh and how it motivated me to get in to psychiatric nursing. Very scarey I can tell you but very rewarding.

My point is you should just go with the flow. You are The Badger. Ruth Badger is nothing compared to you. She can run a business. But you can cluck, squalk, tic, do the entire voice over for the animal sound effects of the film BABE, kick ass on guitar hero, write a fooking good blog, and do all this while being a lovely person and working hard. You rock. Time you realised that dude. x

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Blogger brumcunian said...

http://www.septicisle.info/uploaded_images/_41990168_pete_416_300-759555.jpg

Argh try this picture link

11:08 PM  
Blogger Badger said...

Thanks to all of you. You are all very kind. You make me smile, happy safe smiles. Thank you for understanding me. Special thanks to Stray for nominating me for 'Post of the Week' - I feel touched, and super proud to have made the short list! hee.

Badger will sleep well tonight, dreaming of winning awards and such. :)

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Blogger Dale said...

Thank you for this.

3:25 AM  
Blogger Bitterroot said...

Badger, you've given your readers an insight into your inner world. It's so valuable; thank you.

8:58 PM  
Blogger PurpleSparkleBright said...

ooh. ah. I am touched. I cant add anything to what you have put! yikes! lovely!
Post of the Week definetely.

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Blogger mike said...

Congratulations on winning Post of the Week.

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Blogger Böbø said...

Wow Badger.

Really. Wow. Beautiful. Truthful. Honest. And maybe most importantly, self-loving.

Shake, Rattle and Roll, babe!!

10:08 AM  
Anonymous enidd said...

enidd thinks that was a very well-written post - well-written, but not over-written. it deserved to win post of the week. congratulations!

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Blogger sheepish said...

A very worthy winner and shows what good stuff is out there. Well done on illuminating a difficult subject.

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Blogger Sally Lomax said...

I second Enidd! Well done!

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Blogger Jude said...

That deserves post of the week.

Well done for expressing it.

9:44 PM  
Blogger Badger said...

Thank you everyone, you are all very kind.

Today I got an email from a lady who works for the Scottish Tourettes Society asking if she could publish my post in their newsletter! wow! I am super smiles happy all over again.

Badger x

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Blogger brumcunian said...

Yay I get to combine the one handed blog challenge from the lovely stray's blog http://dailystraying.blogspot.com with congratulating Badger on her post of the week.

Using the left hand keys on the keyboard only ... drumroll

Bad ass badger gets award!

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Anonymous S said...

Fantastic. Nothing could have put your state of mind into words, better.

2:21 PM  
Anonymous Ms. Clark said...

OK, I'm weird, I know, but there are such cool things about Tourette people. The package of Tourette seems to come with an incredible creativity, sometimes it's an incredible way with words.

I can imagine how painful it is to have people look at you like you are a fool. I have Asperger's and some very subtle Tourette like traits, that might be OCD (OCD and Tourette are strongly linked). But I think reading what other Tourette people write and learning how they deal with things might help.

I bought a DVD from the Tourette Syndrome Associate. It's called, "I have Tourette, But Tourette's doesnt have me."
It was produced by HBO \http://store.tsa-usa.org/video.html
It's mostly interviews with kids, but to me it's was stunning. I gave it to a friend who's son is undiagnosed currently.
The TSA seems to be a helpful and respectful organization. There isn't a similar helpful organization for autistic adults.

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Anonymous Ms. Clark said...

Hmmm. That's supposed to say Tourette Syndrome Association.

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Blogger Clare said...

Wonderful post. Well written, informative, moving. I so hope it helps you in some way.

10:09 AM  
Blogger The Periodic Englishman said...

Hello Badger, nice to meet you.

That was really rather a staggeringly good post. Deeply personal, sure, but highly informative (and engaging) with it. Thank you.

Heap big respect and warmth coming straight at you from Ireland...........

TPE

4:46 PM  
Blogger Janejill said...

Hello Badger - I think your post was just brilliant - so moving and brave and true; I hope it gives you hope - please know that you being you is very very valuable - you write so well too - I am just full of admiration

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PS: ditto on the vid that Ms. Clark mentioned. i saw bits of that on a blog a while back. it was cool.

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